Sexual abuse can be the monster in the darkness that steals your freedom. In a moment it transforms your life from innocence and joy to a life filled with shame, hopelessness, confusion, and pain.
At 9 years old, I was molested by my brother’s teenage friend. Up until that day, I was a regular little girl filled with joy, trust, and an ability to look at the good in people. That day changed me forever. As I lay on the bed while my shorts and underwear were taken down, I remember the confusion and fear I felt, wondering, Why… Why… Why would he do this to ME!!!
One thing I know for sure is that the little 9-year-old girl who was laid down on that bed was NOT the same little girl who got up. I was never the same.
It’s taken my lifetime to find healing and love for that little girl who now knows the monster in the darkness didn’t win. I’ve learned, even when bad things happen: Never lose hope, don’t give in to the pain, and walk in faith.
Counseling has helped me heal from that unconscionable molestation and other hurts I endured afterward. I’ve personally benefited from quality counseling, and that’s the reason I choose to partner with Fighting For Me. I know getting therapy after sexual abuse can be a huge tool in overcoming it.
I had to learn how real love looked and felt. Wisdom taught me, “You can’t give what you don’t have,” and I knew if I didn’t learn how to love myself, I’d never be able to receive or give love to anyone else. Forgiveness for those who hurt me has also helped me heal; it has allowed me to take my power back.
The hope I’ve found is the reason I record my show “Change is in the Air!” I’ve emerged from the darkness, and every weeknight I get to tell listeners there is a real love that never fails. I’ve found that love in my relationship with Christ Jesus and He wants you to know He loves you, He won’t leave you where you are, and “Change is in the Air!”
Host of "Change is In the Air"